One of the Few Blondes in the Crowd... Sunday, May 21

In church I got a bit choked up at the realization that every week I've been "trying out" a new seat, trying to find a seat where I feel comfortable.  Last week I attended church by myself and felt like the loser in the pew alone.  No one sat beside me.  Every week at this particular church I've been sitting in a different seat, in a different row, in a different section.  But when I go to my church, Grant, in Toronto, I sit every week in the very same seat I sat in when I first attended it.  I've felt comfortable there from the very start.

I'm struggling with trying to feel comfortable at this church.  It's massive and I've never been a fan of big churches, plus I can't stand the fact that they have several services on Sunday so their choir, pastor and whatnot is on repeat four times every Sunday.  I'm trying to give it an honest chance.  With the exception of last week, I've always gone with others.  There's six of us that meet up there, two of which are super cute little girls that go off to Sunday School, and two that are a super sweet married couple.  The two little girls are their kids.  The four of us sit together during the service and I like that but so far it's really the only thing that has me continually coming back to this church.

A couple of weeks ago I typed up a new group idea, a proposal for this particular church.  In Eastwood they have a group that used to meet every Tuesday for a group workout.  I love the idea but I'm not going to be living in Eastwood after this week.  The church I go to now is the one I'll continue to go even after my move but they don't have a weekly workout group so I proposed one.  I emailed them again a day or two ago, to touch base with them, and they responded by saying my proposal is going through a chain of people.  They said they'd get back to me when they have to final go or no regarding it.

I hope they say yes to my proposal.  I really don't want to just be another person in their church seat, testing out a new seat every week because I haven't found a spot that's comfortable for me.  Making this workout group would totally be a game changer for me.